Saturday, February 5, 2011

Speaking Up

Ok, so this blog is about happiness and motivation and achieving goals and dreams. We're all cool with that right? But I dare say that either you haven't always had The Bliss, or maybe you've misplaced it only recently and you're reading this blog because it helps you get back on track. That would be pretty cool, if my blabbering helped you out like that. I've been there too, Blissless, from time to time, sometimes more Blissless than other times.

What I want to share with you is a Blog I have been following, which is selfless, generous and inspirational all at the same time.

If you or anyone close to you has ever suffered depression, or ever had suicidal thoughts, or even if you've just had a dark day, read Random Ramblings of a Stay at Home Mum. The author, Lori, is currently experiencing the hell that must be the aftermath of suicide. Her very much adored husband passed away about a month ago, and she has shared a huge amount of her ordeal through her blog.

If you would like to share her story, a good place to start is here, the beginning of the After. Use the 'Newer Post' link at the bottom of the page to move to the next post in the story. This is not an easy read. I only came across Lori's blog in the After, when I followed it from a link in another blog. I am so thankful that I found it though. I don't know Lori, and she doesn't know me. I am just one of hundreds, maybe thousands of people who have been let into her life and her innermost thoughts.

Lori's writing is raw. It is pain, and it is hope, and it is coping. She has somehow put into words that stomach grinding pain that we have all felt at some time or another, where I never thought words existed, and where there is nothing - nothing physical, nothing thought, nothing shared - but pain. Lori is so strong. She is Mum to two very small children, and I know there is so much more to her story and her daily life than what we have the privilege of knowing. I have left one comment on her page (I'm not much of a commenter), and I found it hard to sum up what I wanted to say. Lori comes across as extremely thankful for the support she has received from her community online and off. But I don't think she realises what a huge honour she has allowed us, and what an amazing resource she has gifted to people who are suffering from mental illness, or those that are close to them.

If, god forbid, I should ever have to cope with anything near as terrible as Lori, I will be a better, stronger and more capable person for having had the privilege of sharing her journey and her strength. It would be selfish of me to keep it to myself. Please know that this is probably a journey you want to read on your own, at a quiet time (with a glass of wine) and take in properly. I wish I had found Lori's blog in the Before, so that I knew more of her before this happened. I will most likely never meet her, but I am eternally thankful and I hope each and everyone of you can take something from Lori's writing. Through all that she has shared, I know someone will be stopped from experiencing the same, from either end.

Thank you Lori, though I would never wish the last month of your life on anyone, I am eternally grateful that you allow me to share it. More people need to be brave enough to speak up like you have.


Lori @ RRSAHM said...

Thanks so much for this post Penny. It's awesome xoxox

Penny said...

You are more than welcome, thank you, too. Very much.

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